Friday, July 11, 2008

Lesson learned...

Well, hopefully this week I have learned a lesson about not complaining and feeling sorry for myself or something...I don't know!! Tuesday and Wednesday I was feeling utterly fed up and sick of being in pain all the time, and I was feeling very emotional and hormonal and angry, and all that fun stuff, and wishing this pregnancy would just hurry up and be over! Anyway, so there I was feeling that way, and then on Wednesday I got an ear infection which has only got worse and worse since then. So now I'm feeling even more sorry for myself, but I'm wondering whether I should be learning some sort of lesson from this, like, I should be happy that my baby isn't coming into the world premature or something, even if pregnancy is agony for me. Which is of course true, I would do anything to make sure he is born early, but it just seems unfair that there are women out there who have wonderful enjoyable pregnancies and then there are women like me who have to suffer through almost constant pain/sickness/agony/etc for the entire 9 months! So now I have this ear infection too, and I tell you I am never getting my prescriptions filled at Walmart EVER AGAIN! I went to the doctor yesterday at 3:15pm, and she gave me prescription for ear drops which would be safe during pregnancy, and she had the nurse call it in to Walmart, so I went straight to walmart after my appointment and got the the pharmacy at probably about, and the woman at first couldn't find me in the computer and then told me it would be about 10 more minutes, so I went and got some granola bars and a drink so that Avery and I would be able to wait, and came back and sat on the bench in front of the pharmacy where the woman could see me. I waited there for 45 minutes before I realised that the woman who had "helped" me wasn't there anymore, so I got back in line and gave the new woman my information and she told me she couldn't find my prescription in the computer and maybe the doctor hadn't called it in after all, at which point I got a little angry with her because it was now 5:15pm and if the previous woman had told me that an hour ago then I would have been able to call my doctors office and have them send it in again but now the office was closed. So she told em to sit down again and wait, so I did, and by this point Avery had really had enough of sitting in the cart so I was having to try and keep her entertained, and my body was hurting and my back was hurting and I was having contractions and the whole right side of my head was pounding and painful, and I just wanted to go home and cry and/or yell at someone. Anyway, I finally did get my prescription at about 5:45pm, and then it cost me $50, and so by the time I got out to the car and started driving home I really did just break down and cry, and Avery was in the back going "Okay Mummy?" in that sweet little way she does it, but then once I was actually really crying, she seemed to think I was laughing or something so she started laughing and saying "Funny Mummy! Silly Mummy!" and there I was bawling as I drove and trying to stop crying because I didn't want to crash and also because the crying only made my ear hurt even more. It was not a happy time. So it's time to find somewhere new to get my prescriptions. I had another big burst of crying once Gabe got home and he hugged me and tried to make me feel better, and then he took Avery with him to get Chick-fil-a for dinner and I took some tylenol and tried to eat my food without opening my mouth because it hurt, and then Gabe put Avery to bed, and I lay on the couch and started to feel a little better as the tylenol started to work. Unfortunately, since I'm pregnant tylenol is the only thing I can take, and while it does dull the pain somewhat, it only works for about 3 or 4 hours, but I can only take it once every six hours, so that was rather fun in the middle of the night last night. Good times, good times.... Maybe this will be one of those things that will be funny in hindsight, but I don't really think so...! The doctor said I should be feeling better by monday, and I have to keep on doing the ear drops until next thursday. Monday seems like a very long way away, I'll tell you that. Right now it still seems to just be getting worse, but I'm only on my third dose of ear drops, so I suppose I need to try to be patient. Right now I'm in the middle of that wonderful tylenol window where the last pills I took aren't working anymore, but it's too soon to take anymore. So I'm going to go find something to distract myself. At least Avery's asleep, so I can just sit around feeling sorry for myself and I don't have to worry about keeping her entertained too!
So maybe I haven't really learned a lesson about not feeling sorry for myself after all....

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